Work From Home

Alright a little bit about me…to start I am 20, in the Marine Reserve as an Infantryman, and am also in college. It would seem as if I am the only person in the world who thinks and acts the way I do outside of the military. I am a very goal oriented person who sets high standards not only for myself, but expect others to hold themselves to equivalent standards as well. I have many morals, generally a quiet guy, I tend to get angry easily but never show it, I would give the shirt off my back to anyone who needed it more than I did, I love my parents and everything I have in life although its not much, I am very opinionated but can see both sides of an argument, I am religious, pretty smart, independent, I enjoy a good laugh, like to have a good time and live my life, am physically fit and pretty good looking (I am not trying to be arrogant, I just simply want you to understand where I am coming from in hopes that someone could possibly help). With that said…

Is it me, or are a lot of things f***ed up? Here is my problem…So I started to see this back in high school, but really see it now that I have been in college for a while. Yeah sure I understand college is were you break out from your parents and get crazy, so I understand that some people choose to do drugs and get plowed on tanked tuesdays, wasted wednesdays, thirsty thursdays…etc, (Im from Wisconsin). I mean, i enjoy a beer or fifteen, sometimes more if Im feeling a little crazy (my attempt at humor, but still kinda true). Either way, long story short, I understand that never will anyone think and act the exact same way as me. I would say that I am quite mature for my age, I care about politics…a lot, can hold Intelligent conversations with nearly anyone, I am serious when it is necessary and only joke when its appropriate…i think you get the picture. But here is my problem. At the end of the day I like to analyze my current life and make plans for my future ranging anywhere from…should I eat the pizza I forgot to put in the fridge tomorrow for breakfast? To; are the actions of today going to benefit my future? I look at my current situation. I personally cant stand being around stupid people. I don’t necessarily mean academically dumb, but people who only care about the next time they get high, how they can take five gym classes and get a damn 4.0 when, at the same age, I am taking 300 and 400 level constitutional law and political science classes and struggle to get a 2.5, people like that who just "play the system" and skate by with no more than a few good drunken stories and a college degree they have earned in six years. I am using these as examples, but these types of people come down to a certain few categories that seem to make up at least 80% of the population. 80% you say? It may be a bit of an exaggeration, but there are a lot more people like this than you may realize. They are the people that skate by with life, never do more than the absolute bare minimum or do what they need to in order to please their spouse, partner, boss, parents, friends etc… Most people when they think about it, mentally say "psht…that’s not me, Hahaha I feel sorry for the idiots he is talking about?" But then hopefully somewhere in their head it clicks and they realize, oh shit, Im not really doing anything about my problems, and I am actually kinda ignoring them. I sit here and complain about our government, but hell, I’d rather watch a rerun of Jersey Shore then get all the way in my car, fill out some paperwork, stand in line and vote. (again just an example) Its these same groups of people who sincerely care more and show more emotion toward stupid pointless crap like how their iphone wont get reception, or how the bears lost to the packers then how they are going to find a job, pay the bills, get their project done etc…Its just, I cant understand how so many people can live that way. Now I will admit that I am no perfect person, I will admit that before any of you, believe me, I was jumping up and down when the bears lost, but why does nobody realize this? Is it just me and a very minute select few?
It is because, in my opinion, I see life from a different perspective than most that I have a few friends and a lot of people who don’t care for me much, good relations with those who are older than myself, girls but no girlfriend, and leadership billets in the military. Some good comes out of me thinking this way, but mostly bad when dealing with my peers. I seem to make a lot of people angry and I do not try to what so ever. So please readers of this yahoo question…what am I doing wrong? Not much seems to be going my way socially with those who are my age. I attract older women, (who find out how old I am and instantly don’t seem interested) Have only one male friend the same age, the rest are all older, can only relate to people who are older…What am I doing wrong, should

So, you are only 20, Don’t get too excited one way or the other regarding your college contacts. I will suggest to you that the most important thing you learn in college is how to get along with people. The academics are not nearly as important as you might think, but this won’t be apparent to you for another 20 years.

You being a marine reservist separates you from most college kids in the first place. Be friendly to everyone, non-judgmental, and stand back and observe in good humor rather than worry too much about what they are doing to themselves or how faulty they are. You will have people like that around you the rest of your life, less so if you go into active duty, but even there.

The hormone issue is more key for you at your age. That is, the ladies in your life will impact you more than the guys, whom you can take or leave with little worry. Nature mandates that you find a life partner, and you will, but you have lots of time to be selective. Keep it in your pants and look for some young lady who can appreciate that. You will be bored with her soon enough even if she is Miss Perfect-for-you because nature works that way. Wants you to have lots of partners. You only need one, as does she.

My daughter dated a couple hundred guys and never found Mr Right, and she is now 40. Mostly her fault, I think. Told her to look for good guys in church, not in the bars.

So I submit that you probably are not doing anything particularly "wrong" and will continue to learn new and better ways regarding how to get along with your college friends. Again, this is your most important college lesson, so take advantage of it. They are doing you a favor, being different, because you will learn a new lesson everyday by being around them. Pretend to be at their level or at least friendly, smile even when you are dismayed, and move on. If you are up for the challenge, find the most obnoxious one and take them on as a challenge.

One approach is, "George, I consider you to be my friend." Whatever you say after that just needs to be consistent and logical. Practice on the guys, then the girls. When you challenge people to be your friend like that, some will be honored and will reciprocate. In any case, it will be sorted out quickly and any adverse result will not be due to your actions.

I just turned 21 and finished school. My aunt kindly offered for me to come live with her for awhile so I can have a place to stay while I get started in life. She will be turning 62 in a few months. I feel like there is a huge generation gap between us.

She is a very liberal and open minded person but there have already been a few misunderstandings between us because she has a different mentality than I do. For example, a lot of times in conversation when I have tried to share my point of view on a topic, she perceives it as me interrupting her or being rude. From my perspective, I was just putting input in the conversation. She has openly admitted that she believes my generation to be very arrogant. She says at work in seminars/lectures she can’t believe the 20 year olds have the audacity to interrupt and how arrogant it is that they feel like they have a right to share personal stories in the middle of a lecture and how this is a real problem. Also, she believes that older people should automatically be given respect just because they are old and have more life experience & knowledge. Most people in my generation would disagree, we are more likely to believe that respect should be earned no matter the age and not freely given.

Those are just a few examples, its a different mentality. I think that she is truly an amazing and kind person and I am grateful she has given me the opportunity to come live with her for awhile. I really want this to work out and have a good relationship with her. But sometimes I feel like we come from different worlds in our ways of thinking and doing things. What advice can you give me on how to better get along with her? And how can I show her that not everyone in my generation is an immature, arrogant, moron?

You start out by saying she’s a liberal, then describe her more as a conservative. Other than that, you are staying in her home, so you follow suit and probably just try to fit in. Pick up and clean up after yourself and keep regular hours so you won’t disturb her sleep. Offer to help her with things where she might use some assistance. Sixty-two is far from old, so she probably has her own schedule. You should pay attention and try to blend in.

I want to do part time or full time job on the net. Mostly i found scam sites which provides work from home. Can anyone please tell me the genuine sites which gives great opportunities of Work from Home or Home based Business?

None. There are None that can pay you anything meaningful.

Go and get a job.

Can raising a grievance procedure against your boss who is bullying you and cutting your hours down get them fired or at least raised to a employment tribunal for there actions? what are the benefits to raising a grievance? I like my job and the people I work with but my bosses attitude towards me is disgraceful and there is a history of this boss forcing people to resign in the past, Most people at work feel the same about this boss who has caused a lot of hassle to everyone who worked there.

I don’t want to raise a grievance if it risks me getting fired?

Raising a grievance always runs the risk of backfiring on the employee, no matter how right they are to raise it. The HR department is not there to look after your wellbeing; they are there to ensure the business functions properly.

If your boss has a history of forcing people to resign, why do you think the outcome will be different in your case? Bear in mind that many people who ‘feel the same’ will shy away from speaking up because they will be worried about jeopardising their own careers.

If your boss has a contractual right to cut your hours, then you have no grounds for a grievance on that score.

Im 16, and my girlfriend of 5 months just dumped me. I feel as if a part of me has just died :’(. The reason we broke up, is because I would always do nice things for her, like writing her a song on the guitar, a poem, tons of little love letters, and I just loved hugging and kissing her, because it made me feel so warm inside :). But She would just never really return the favor. She would accept my hugs and kisses and hold my hand if I hold hers first, but I would just always tell her how much it bothers me, and she would get defensive about it, and tell me to stop criticizing and yelling at her. I would always tell her how much she means to me, and how it hurts that she didn’t return the favor. Sometimes I would get mad, because i felt like she didn’t care about me.She eventually got tired of being told that, and felt like there was a better girl out there for me, so she broke up with me…im so crushed :’(. I just wanted her to understand that I need her to show me her love, or it just kills me inside :’(. I mean i wasn’t asking for much. Sometimes she would just space out around me and stare off into space. I just wanted her to tell me she loves me a bit more or hug me or hold my hand first sometimes. It hurts most of all that im not worth that little bit of effort :’(. I love her so much…but its all over now. I wanted to be her friend, and we pinky promised to always be bestest buddies, but she asked me if it was okay if she talked to this other guy that she likes at school. We just broke up a week ago. And the worst part is that I let her talk to this guy while we were dating, because I trusted her :’(. She denies that she left me for him, but I told her that I just am wondering if i’ll ever find someone i like as much as her, and it makes me feel even more alone that she has someone that she cares about more already… We fought about this for about a week. I wanted an apology and some time to heal so we could be friends. She would just keep saying that im yelling at her like when we were together. I know I deserve an apology, and eventually she gave it to me, so I said we could be friends again eventually. She told me that i’d find an amazing girl, and that things happen for a reason. I mean I still don’t think she realizes how much she hurt me…Regardless, I told her to be happy and to be with this guy. It’ll hurt like hell, but I just want you to be happy. I’ve been through this twice before. I’ll live. A day passed and i thought about what kind of guy this was, and how much she hurt me, and how immature she must be to even consider doing this to me. I told her about how I talked to my mom about she’d never do this kind of thing to me, and how I thought she was different before. About how I missed the person I thought she was, and if we met a few years later she might have been able to handle a serious relationship. She told me that dating wasn’t about finding someone to marry. I told her that to me, dating is about finding someone to spend your life with, and I thought that person was you before you did all of this to me. I told her that shes just being stupid if shes willing to hurt me this much, since I unconditionally love her after all shes done to hurt me. I told her that this guy is just someone who takes advantage of girls( he is. He’s had like 5 girlfriends in the last 2 years). I told her that I was the best thing that ever happened to her, and that if she wanted me in her life she had to earn my respect back. That i love her, but don’t respect her. She began to get all defensive about me judging her for liking another guy and how she’s treated me. I told her that she never treated me right when we together, and especially not now. That she just doesn’t understand, and that I think she will someday. Good luck in all that you are doing, and have a good christmas break. Did I do the right thing?

Cut contact, man up and move on

the checks went to a account(TD) in which parents had ownership of. with the persons name on the account as well as a minor (17) Example account for (mom’s name/ daughters name)
they had the daughter sign something right after she signed her check, and they "put in the money"
she didn’t know what this extra paper was. they said it was to put in a few extra cents to keep it even numbers. she trusted they were telling the truth.
she worked for a year before asking them if she can control the account. she did not know they stole the money at the time it was only a wanting more responsibility type of thing at the time. a little before this question she asked them if she could hold onto her information(id,birth certificate, ss card ETC) they said no making excuses. so she reasoned with them. they said it was safe in their( metal) safe. she asked will you give it to me if i i buy a safe? they said yes. she buys a good safe. and they still don’t give it to her.. so she gave up.
as soon as she asked if she could control her money…. the first attempts were asking if she can control the accounts she had. the second attempts were asking if she opened an account can she put all her money from all the accounts there so she can earn interest. they said yes to the second attempt but said they don’t want to have anything to do with it, assuming she cant drive and doesn’t know any life skills like banking whatsoever..luckily she was being helped by someone who noticed what her parents were doing and was helping her the whole time. so the person took her to make an account, and made sure she did it right with only her name and making sure only she knew the information…. all hell broke loose. the parents went into a you’re not welcome here attitude. and continued to make excuses and ignoring the questions. about when she can have her money. she made an account at a different bank, and got direct deposit. then continued making excuses for about a two weeks about forgetting checks at work. when she let them know that she made an account they tried getting as much information about it. first asking nicely for the info. then stealing information from her safe and purse. she found her personal bank info in her parents drawers. and the info was in her purse only. not in the safe yet.
she also saw while snooping that all the accounts she had. all the checks were deposited in there but then almost equal amounts were withdrawn directly after. she had no access to anything of hers until she snooped.
now she doesn’t live with them. (they snapped at some point after her asking for her money, and told her she needs to pay rent. from now on. they had all her money…) she decided not living with them was the best option for her, even though she had nothing to start with but a job and a place to live.
she continues to ask for her money(it has not been given). and her info. its been almost a year since she found out they stole it and 5 months since she left the home. she’s been easy on them up until now but she really wants to start college and get a car with out ending up on the street.
what can she do to get her money back? on not be stuck at a dead end job forever.
what she has to work with is
* access to her pay stubs and proof about how much she made from the company estimated 7000-10000$ after tax
* pictures of some of the checking books showing deposits and withdraws.
*pictures of parents personal documents showing many wrong doings. going bankrupt after using a credit card for a huge sum, and having a bank account in a different state. stealing a lot more info from their daughter than just those. including years of passwords and email addresses with passwords that they never gave her. they saw everything she did every conversation she had for years
* they also had passwords from other family members(stolen)
* they have sold a lot of her stuff on ebay. and given away a lot of her stuff to family members who ddon’tknow she’s gone from the home.(they kept the money)
AND KeY is hundreds of hours of recordings of them scheming against her talking about her like she is garbage(which she really iisn’t..) recorded after every time she asked for her money while she lived there claiming she has no money in some and in others claiming they used it all on her stuff like buying food paying for her health insurance eETC(all without her permission), family members and others.
her parents are people who look like they have no money and are the scum of the earth. they have two cars. one car they tell people(like her grandparents) iisn’ttheirs so that they help them with money. the mom works. the dad sits at home all day. they are helped with all their bills(not proven but the daughter knows from conversations had at home)
it is assumed and very likely that all her money is in the out of state account. they used to drive there once a week so it was no big deal.
what

ii is a joint account with a minor, while maybe unfair not illegal

From birth I never believed in God due to the inconsistency of his creation and the lives they live. I could just never make sense of it. I would see some people with

lots of money and friends
no money but a loving supportive family
people who were just screwed from the get go and lived messed up lives until death
evil people who live happy lives while not really earning what they get
and then you got people like me who have done nothing wrong but suffer 24/7 365

So due to this I could just never take God seriously and I truly believe he isn’t real, he just cant be. But if he is real then whats his excuse for this. The ‘Its all a test’ theory gets old because its only fair that everyone get the same test. Would you like if your professor gave you a harder test than everyone else? So yeah that Test thing doesn’t really answer my questions, just makes me think God is more screwed up in the head.
Its like this : My friend (well old friend since he stopped talking to me because I was weird and not in his social class…I am dirt poor) has everything he can want and more. Loving family, born rich, is brilliant, handsome, has a lovely fiance and the dude just has EVERYTHING going for him. Of course the average person living this life would be humble and not miserable at all. So if you tell them god is real they may very well believe it and I guess thats why he is religious to the max!

Now lets look at my life: Got dead beat parents, have many illnesses and cant afford health coverage so I must withstand the pain, I am dyslexic so I fail most of my classes in college even though i study night and day, I work a dead end job since thats all i can get with no degree, I am not handsome at all so women just pass me straight. I have Asperger’s Syndrome so its hard for me to make friends much less keep one since they think I am weird and come this thanksgiving I have nowhere to go since I have no family and friends. I swear its been like this for years, I actually ate left over McDonalds fries for Christmas last year since thats all I could afford and I had no one to go by. I can tell this Thanksgiving and Christmas will be the same as well. So how can someone who got this kinda Test be equal to the other person and test I listed above?

I just don’t know the purpose of life….well at least my life. I wake up and nothing makes sense, I log into my Facebook at the library and EVERYONE has friends and is enjoying life to the fullest. Not a single soul messages me or invites me to hang out with them; even if I message some politely they just ignore since I am a nobody. I must be a punishment of god or something because he hates my guts. He cant possibly love me on the same level that he loves everyone else.
Sure I can look at the bright side since I have a roof over my head but sometimes thats not enough to make a man happy. Working everyday to pay rent is not really something to be thankful for, sure its better than being homeless but I wont call that a wonderful blessing. I just wish I could wake up one day and this would all be a dream, because right now I am screwed. I dont know if suicide is the way to go but I am living a life similar to being dead so I guess it wouldn’t make a difference if I did check out of this life.
All I do is wake up, work, eat cheap noodles since thats all i can afford, then go to sleep and do it all over again. No friends, family, extra money to go out and have fun…etc. And when I do get extra money I just catch up on bills and try to buy medication.
So eff my life and if God is real then boy is he some piece of work!

Some people say I gotta have faith and never give up but I was doing that from birth until I turned 21 years old and nothing changed. Actually things got worst so idk whats going on

First of all, there probably aren’t any gods at all and there are plenty of reasons not to believe in them not limited to what you have mentioned.

Second, there is a correlation between socio-economic status and health. Rich people tend to have better diets and have more means to take care of themselves. If your parents are as bad as you say, I can only imagine the kind of nutrition you grew up with. It also sounds like you didn’t have the emotional/social support from them either. People who are affluent also tend to dress and groom themselves better which can make them appear more attractive than they otherwise would be. In turn, looking good and eating well improves confidence and overall mood. Confident and happy people tend to do better socially than shy awkward people. It truly is a vicious circle.

There is no cosmic significance to our lives, the only purpose to life is the one we give ourselves. There is no god, so no god doesn’t hate you. What a convenient excuse that would be for living a miserable life, blaming an unaccountable invisible entity. Even if gods existed, you wouldn’t be important enough for them to hate. That’s okay, though, neither are any of the rest of us.

You are doing yourself no favours comparing your life to that of your old friend. You were ‘dealt different cards’ so to speak. The only thing you can do is best play the cards you have. There was a time when I could only afford to eat a package of Mr Noodles every other day. True story, so I can relate a little to what you’re going through. Looking for someone to blame is a waste of time and energy. Find ways to improve your life.

Most schools I know of have programs for people who are dyslexic where you can take special tests so it is your knowledge of the subject matter that is tested and not your ability to cope with dyslexia. If you’re still in college go talk to student services. There are ways to cope with dyslexia.

Want something to do for Thanksgiving? Go volunteer at a soup kitchen for those even less fortunate than you. Get into the habit of helping, not just sitting around feeling sorry for yourself. Get over yourself, you’re not the only one with problems.

As for the whole ‘test’ thing, it is hogwash. But don’t you want to see just what you’re capable of? Can one ever appreciate pleasure without knowing suffering? Make your own life better and you will have earned those comforts and that would be something that your friend will never experience.

There are lots of ‘free’ things to do to improve your quality of life. Maybe there is a freeskool where you live. There are plenty of options I can think of that exist here and there is probably an equivalent where you are. You just have to decide whether or not you want to live or be a lump on a log.

Only you have the power to improve your life. That is no one’s responsibility but your own. There are benefits to being on the fringe, believe me, you sometimes get to see the big picture in ways you otherwise wouldn’t have reason to even look for.

If you’re looking for purpose, maybe you’d appreciate reading "Ishmael" by Daniel Quinn. It will make you think a little bit differently about life and what it means to live.

Okay. Here is my problem. Please read it all.

I’m a 16 year old kid. I dropped out of school when I was 15 and in the 9th grade. The school system here is 9th grade is still Jr. High you just earn HS credits only in a Jr. High. So I never have been to High School.

Ok, lets get to why I dropped out. It started in 8th grade when 3 kids were severely bullied me every day and then threatening to stab me with a knife after school. I skipped school the whole week and when I came back I took a pair of brass knuckles to school and basiclly beat the **** out those kids. one of them had to go the the hospital and I got charged for it.
At this school I had grown so much hatred for the kids and they hated me. I had other bullies besides them but not as severe. That’s when started smoking Pot and using L.S.D and Snorted coke a couple of times because I was so depressed.

I got into a huge fight with my mom where I then moved back with my dad. I finished 8th grade at the new Jr. High where he lived at but hated it because I had other kids teasing me and I had no friends. I hated it and was dreaded going back after the summer.

Ok, so then I started 9Th grade at the Jr. High where I actually met some friends. I was doing well with my grades. In my past years I have gotten nothing but F’s I always failed school but this year I seemed to do good Becuase I wanted to pass high school. The work got harder so I dropped down to d’s and f’s and I was absent becuase me and my dad had a rough fight and missed about 2 weeks of school (not explaining that one, too complicated). And I moved back to my moms house.

My mom asked me about my school and What I did was thought to myself. "Do I really want to go back to school with all of the other D.I.C.K. weed kids? Hell not I don’t So I took online high school program that we have here. It’s TONS AND TONS more complicated is the work and it’s too. So I Struggling with crappy grades and the bullshit I had to go through in the past year since I got kick out of my original school I threw in the towel and said F.U.C.K it. I’m quitting school, I’m dropping out. ECT. so now it’s 8 months later.

I have never been to high school and all my friends are in high school now and I’m sitting here at home doing nothing but sit on the computer while life passes me by and all my other friends are in high school. If I go back I would have to repeat 3 quarters of 9th grade and catch up with my things I would be going if I was in 10th. This dilemma is really F/u/c/k/ing with my mind. What should I do. Get a GED learn a trade and if you recommend going back to High school how should I present it to my parents.

I feel like I’m going to be a failure in life either living in poverty and I’m going to sit back and watch my friends graduate while I did nothing. I feel depressed like I’m a failure. I feel weak.

Bro check this. I used to be just like you, 2 years ago (no drugs tho, im not that brave). What happened to me was, I got bullied too, for being short and black. Used to deal with sht from everyone in class and no one liked me, but the thing was I didn’t retaliate (like you did with your brass-knuckles). I thought ignoring the problem would make it go away, but it just kept getting worse, every single day. And one day I just broke, I was like "fk it, im not going to school for a week, I need time to recover from all this sht".

So, that’s what I did, didn’t go to school for a week, but when it came for the time to go back to school again, I was thinking "shud i go or not go? go or not go? go or not go?" i asked myself so many times and I just lost it. Thought to myself, i’m never going back to school again, cuz i have to deal with catching up and also I might be bullied again.

Of course, my parents got a call from the school saying I haven’t been attending school…and I had to deal with parents and all that sht. But after that, I realized that I had hit rock bottom. It could not have gotten any worse. I can only go up from here. I got all my sht together and started all over again.

But the same sht happened to me once more. I lost my confidence and in my first year of College, I flunked all the classes for 3 months and I got ripped up by my parents. Got owned to the max! And that’s when I learned that the longer you stay with a problem it only gets worse.

SO THE LESSON here is. Fk what others think. Show your friends that you are not the type to give up. Go to college. Work hard. And fkin earn some respect. Cuz the longer you sit at home letting the world pass by, the older you will get, and fall behind the world.

Think about it this way, whatever you are going to do from NOW will only make you better. Take one step at a time. tell your parents about what you have decided, and make a promise to them that you will try as hard as you can. Assure them that you will make them proud. But also reward yourself for every little achievement.

P.S. work towards quitting smoking and drugs bro, trust me they will only make it worse.
Work Hard, Play Hard, Stay Hard. You can do it bro, I believe in you, and so should you.

I am 19, resident of NJ, currently jobless unless you count being a sponsored skateboarder and garbage man as well as starving musician/artist, and I’m sick of my life right now. I’m so sick of it I don’t even like my body right now because I feel like for a while I forgot about myself and well, my teeth aren’t as white as I know they should be, I’m not as healthy as I should feel, and I am drifting with the undertow of my own laziness when I should be catching the next tsunami of epic proportions to cruise on the wave of magnificence, confidence, magnitudes of unexplored heights in my life of accomplishments I could be accomplishing, but yet I am not.
I feel I am a failure. In fact, I know I am a failure, to my own standards. Do not think my standards are being set too high or too low. I have none. Just that I failed what should have been, and now want to make up for it in such a high speed and precisely efficient way that I will be back on the light rail of riding the gravy train straight to the super market to buy me some groceries with my own hard earned or simple earned cash.
Either way, I’m broke as a joke, dumb when it comes to getting a job, and want to get my life back into order. I was going to college but got dropped when I had to deal with my parents calling the police on me for taking a bath at 4 in the morning because I was feeling very ill, and due to the fact that I was pissed off when my mom walked in with out knocking for no reason, only yelling, only telling her to get out and not come in with out knocking, I ended up in a psychiatric ward.
Yeah, so I’m diagnosed bipolar. Could someone bipolar do this? I’m bipolar. I don’t think so, which therefore proves I am not and never will be mentally ill. I am mentally strong and healthy to say the least.
Moving on now, I am vegan, spiritual, and highly adaptive to anything occurring around me. I love skateboarding and snowboarding. I enjoy the outdoors, but love computers also for they possess a knowledge incapacitating, extremely helpful sourcing of content surpassing by light years the knowledge of just one petty human such as myself.
So I ask you all, the internet, the men and women behind your screens, "What do I do?"
What steps do I need to take to get ahead with the information I have put out here for you?
What direction should I go in? (As far as meditation goes.)
How can I deal with past life instances that have involved me with going to psychiatric wards 4 times from ages 17 to 18, but none ever again because I know what happened and why I went, teaching me how never to be involved in a situation like that again… due to the fact that I never had therapy at the young age of six when I was molested, introduced to sex, and forced to take on the task of living my entire life with out therapy, even while I was in these hospitals telling nurses and patients that happened, or actually never telling them because I was too stoned off hospital drugs such as zyprexa 20mg which made me sick, gain 35 pounds, and lose all athletic ability I had ruining my dream of becoming a pro skateboarder, as of now at least.

So now me, this once weak vegan scrawny molested abused suicidal attempting rape and incest victim sits here before bed at 5:33 AM, wishing upon a single star one wish.
Help me.
Please give me the answers I truly need for the question I truly provided, with the need for more explanation needed I will be happy through email to contact anyone, but for now I would like to see what you all have to say because now that I have opened up to you, I hope you can open up to me with not opinions, but knowledge of what you know I should do, and what steps I must or at least should consider taking to fix or at least try to fix my broken life as is already.
I just feel like all the accomplishments I could be making will forever be gone from my life since I am no longer able to go on living with my parents, living like this, and would rather be kicked out then be living under a roof of a home, even during the winter.
I need to find a high paying job, quick.
Or at least a new and supportive home of whom the owner, hopefully a dear friend, or new friend I will make over time, will allow me to explore my inner and outer realms of creativity as well as expressing myself in every which way I can artistically, musically, and 24 hours a day, so I can make my life into the masterpiece I desire.
I feel like I already answered this question just by asking it,
but any answers are greatly appreciated.
So since I can add more detail, why not. Maybe this will turn into that book I was wishing to publish at age 15, or that life changing detail I could put out there to get myself heard…

but since this one ass face of a guy called ikickass already trashed his own reputation to answer this question enough… Well, he shouldn’t even try to mess with me. I’m a hippie pot smoking fun loving music playing masterpiece painting skateboarding snowboarding skimboarding magic carpet riding guru… and well, I do not think answers like his will ever effect me, so message to ikickass, your answer not only does not matter to me, but let me explain how dumb I think the military is… SO dumb… no other explanation needed…

Okay, so in advancing my life problems further into their deeper complexities, I was abused, molested, and forced into rape involving incest at age 6.

Ever since then my life has never been the same, and I have never went to any kind of therapy nor did my parents ever even t

Here’s a list of meditation centres in NJ where you will meet good friends!
http://www.buddhanet.info/wbd/province.php?province_id=51